Quiet and serene things seem to be you see. A day like today, quiet and clean. No disturbance to be felt, far and wide, within this place that I abide. Moments like this seem to be a rarity during these times of calamity. So I like to take them in to the best of my ability, turning these fractions of space into a soliloquy. It makes me wish for younger days, when times like these were more readily available. Growing up is a pain and remains to drain my brain of energy that I wish I could retain so that perhaps I could regain some of my vigor.
oops
A swelling feeling of being worthless boils over like a pot on a stove. I screwed up. I’ve always been one to be hard on myself about things like this.
Failure.
I have felt such an extreme amount of stress and just horrible feelings in the last 24 hours.
Life is all waves though, and my insides are starting to settle down.
It’s been quite a long time since I have felt this way, so I guess I had it coming.
It’s always when things seemingly are going “too well” that life likes to give you a good kick in the side to make you remember that we are still human.
I need a hug.
I’m pining for you in a way that could only give view to whats going on inside. This distance isn’t fair for us to bear and I wish fate wasn’t as cruel as it likes to be. But alas, doesn’t distance make the heart grow fonder? That yearning that occurs when what you want is out of reach.
It sucks.
